-Lost | Destination-

2009-06-01T02:39:00.001-07:00

GEMINI - The Chatterbox (May 21 - June 20)
Smart and witty. Outgoing , very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express them selves. Argumentative and outspoken. Like change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent. Beautiful physically and mentally. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

wonder.

2009-03-19T15:07:00.001-07:00

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2009-03-09T01:43:00.000-07:00

changed.

Damn

2008-12-03T07:41:00.000-08:00

I tried to keep things cool,
some great sarcastic remarks you gave, thanks.
'my manager'? wow, as if it isn't my manager eh?
you have a problem with me getting late? -oh, i have been always late since day 1 when i work. 10am on schedule and i always 12pm came eh?
if u always have to assume being very late once is equivalent to always being late, good job, because what i see is u always do it this way. similarly to ur past relationships.
I came working because you're there working, to think that i actually thought of it.
If you have any further problems, just ask the manager to fire me and nothing else matters.
You want people to accept you(AS A FRIEND), talk and do things that can contribute to it, not going 1 big fucking round to pinpoint people's mistakes and condemn it.

I'm bloody tired with the non-essential quarreling and giving way to say sorry when the person who isnt wrong or was not wrong is me in the first place. Hate me, angry with me, or wanna kill me, do all you want, for I DON'T CARE ALREADY.

To hell with all the considerations and feelings, I fucking can't be bothered with it anymore, any longer.
A blog specially designed to jot life experience, now became a blog just to remember resentments.

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3 years since my life was last screwed, this time it was because of a girl. damn it.

Lost.

2008-11-28T08:21:00.000-08:00

A long time ago, someone once told me i was immature, so I changed.

Someone else told me I was too self-centered, so I changed, sparing more thoughts for others.

Despite the changes I made, why can't I still find happiness?

Am I that pathetic?

Lost in destination till date.

When will my light ever come to blight?

Shattered, Dreams.

2008-11-25T09:35:00.000-08:00

All hopes, gone in a sentence.
Going down, even when i know the result is either a yes or no.
Mentally unprepared, i am.
Your decision, i understand.
It was all just nothing but a mistake.

Will the shattered ever heal itself again.

Eradicating all thoughts off my mind.
Clearing my emotions away from inside.
Seeking what is known to be a peaceful sight.
Hoping tomorrow would still be bright.

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2008-11-23T11:05:00.000-08:00

Module selection ends tomorrow, and i have no bloody idea how can i choose my fifth module for repeated module selection. Lousy module selection website.

School sucks. At least for RP. Good facilities, bad teaching system. Or should i say not even teaching. Self-taught to be more precise. So since questions are only given and knowledge is self-taught, why not let those independent students who know what to do to offer them a choice and study for themselves at home? I rather daily-grades to be banished and offer UTs 100% grading system like what other poly does.

Don't wish to care, don't wish to get involved, don't wish to think. There's nothing to anyway.

Clear, hear the sound of the drifting wind.
Feel, heal the broken thoughts within.

Give up?

2008-11-22T21:44:00.000-08:00

Nothing works.

Done what i could, and should.

Ask to go where, yet this cant, that cant. Tell me, what am i supposed to go then.

What is appropriate?

Who defines appropriate?

With a mentality to cater specifically for appropriation, of course, its logical.

But who cares about appropriation when someone had gave his best asking to date you out.

When hopes rises, and fades, confidence and happiness too fades.

Maybe this would be the last time I would articulate on events like this. Cause it may not actually be worth it.

uncertainty, envious.

2008-11-21T11:03:00.000-08:00

3am once again.

Feeling useless, im lousy. lousy at particular things.
I can help to counsel others, share their thoughts, suggest ways to help them, but i cant counsel myself.
I know how to communicate with others via virtual-world, but don't know how to communicate with others via real-world.
I can tell you why this is wrong, that is wrong, but i cannot tell you how wrong i am.
I can talk normally with friends, yet i cant do the same for special people.
People tried, and they gained something, I tried, yet i lost something.
Useless, damn useless.
Envious of people who can do things the way they want it to, while its the opposite for me.

Perhaps its a 1 sided affection,
Perhaps it may just be a wishful thinking,
Perhaps its just a dream.

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又会有谁能了解我心中的烦闷与失望呢？

New work

2008-11-18T09:55:00.000-08:00

Starting my new work-to-be at 11am tomorrow, yet still unable to sleep, again. Wondered how tomorrow would be like.

Today was nothing much to be happy about, nor anything to be sad about. except for my new specs, which i feel looks nice.

ok.. was pretty sad about something. tried all means to get to her, yet she always has something on(not just once or twice) , things don't work the way i wished for. beginning to feel hopeless.

oh well.
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你晓不晓得呢。

失眠，once again.

2008-11-17T12:16:00.000-08:00

This time, its 4am.

Cant seem to sleep recently, doing nothing, thinking of nothing, blank, just blank.

Had a sudden temptation for serial dramas, again.

Something is lacking in my life, what is it.

Is my destination still lost? simply as sophisticated as it seems.

失眠

2008-11-16T11:07:00.000-08:00

3am, and i couldn't get to sleep. no particular reason.

went to spec-pairing today, and finally after 41235249 minutes since my specs broke.

went for a job interview at kuishinbo-buffet restaurant, great world city. first time there, perhaps not the last.

planning to get a bike, though sad with the 2b license i have to carry around for 1 year, and the risks of encountering a traffic accident that is prominent in singapore, still happy with the thought of travelling via my own bike. afterall i might be wise enough to avoid any accident hopefully.(prayin in progress..)

shall give my best to playing more games before wednesday, where my jobs starts..

kenny's bday bbq party was enjoyable. had fun playing bball and eating food. (esp the satay, otah and sausage) hoho. hope everyone was enjoying themselves as much as i do.

Went tennis with ben at RP in the aft saturday. got pawned pretty badly, but don't worry ! the next time we play, i'll definitely pawn u back flat! (Swap ur tennis racket with me pls ^^)

so since i can't sleep, i shall continue my night-star gazing, though there aren't much stars around my area.

child

2008-11-14T03:59:00.000-08:00

i came across a child with her father and mother while on the back home. Just 4-5 years old.
She takes up 2 seats in the mrt, while her dad n mum takes 1 each. very cute, and brings joy to the ones watching her twisting and turning and playing with her father's hair. Where no restrictions of actions or ethics she has to follow, unlike teenagers or adults have to do, for this is a privillege a young life has, before climbing up the stairs to adulthood, carrying bags of stress, anxiety, responsibility, one bag at a time, towards reality.

Then I wonder, did we really enjoyed our childhood? For me i didn't, maybe the rest didn't too. And those who did not enjoy their childhood days, who became more involved with past negative experiences, turned pessimistic towards the harsh reality? In which they become more resentful, more prone to remembering revenges to be exacted on the experience those people gave them? Is what happened during childhood days be one of the main source of life-changing stages that turned once a kind, pure hearted child into such a person? Of course, we see alot of these happenings in televisions.

Since a pure-hearted child can turn into a bad-hearted child, how about changing back from a once bad-hearted child to a pure-hearted teenager? not to mention the harsh reality that teenagers and adults have to face. Do we have any solution to it?

Blank mind.

2008-11-11T11:45:00.000-08:00

Oh dearest whomever god/spirit/fairy/angel/devil. Please. Please. Not make my worst nightmare come true. I would rather me be wrong in assumption. Please. Make my assumption become false. Pls.

so near, yet so far.

2008-11-03T05:30:00.000-08:00

so near, yet so far. I wondered.

What do i shall could can will must maybe think deny avoid do.

Perhaps I have lost my sense of communicating with people too. - or was it she declined to talk much

I am pathetic, for I can't make people laugh like in the past now. - or was it she have nothing much towards me

I am hopeless. for I cant seem to make my way out of this. - or was it simply because there wasn't even a way to begin with.

I am envious, for there are people much fortunate than me who knows how to handle relationships better than me. - or was it because there wasn't even a relationship to begin with

I am sad, for this I condemned myself. - or was it she condemned me.

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I didn't know what to talk to her, or any topics that could make her jump into conversation that wouldn't end fast. All I could say is few simple lines. so did she. Was i being one-sided all along? I wish someone could enlighten me.. if so, i think i could give up easier.

I didn't know what she is thinking, for she don't talk much to people, unless people approached her to ask about things. Other than that she just sits there and chats with people in msn. Was the past relationship the problem? or family arguments? or friendship problems? psychologically??..

she seemed so near to me, but deep inside me, she seemed so far from me for my hands to reach out to. would she ever give me a chance to?

How i wished this is all just nothing but a dream, because it feels like i'll never change it to the way i wanted it to be.

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哪怕是一点的暗示，或一点表示，我都能够理解你对我的感受。

perhaps not so destinied, afterall/ false hopes.

2008-10-31T08:34:00.000-07:00

I feel depressed. In me i am shaking my head, what did i do wrong, i don't understand why you give me this kind of look as if i am a scary person and pretend im invisible as i walk past you.
Is it because my presence make you feel pressurized? what you say and what you do is 2 different thing. If there is anything wrong with me at any point of time, just tell me, i rather people scold me or insult me directly if i does mistakes rather than keeping to themselves and distance away from me. I am simple, too simple till i lost my sense of what should i do, or what is right to do.

I seek understanding, i seek comprehension of thoughts, i seek for people who are willing to share about themselves so that i can understand them better.

Things doesn't happen as you wanted them to be.

ignorance is bliss/ illusive reality

2008-10-31T08:13:00.000-07:00

couldn't agree with it better.

A world/human has its both good and deceitful sides, and most people would only show the good positive sides of them, things only shows as events happened, lurking out their other side of them. That is why it is good to hope that your life is normal, peaceful, quiet. But humans sure are ironic, while hoping nothing to happen, at the same point feels its too bored, when things happen, they hope its the opposite. When they show the other side of them, on the other hand feels things shouldnt happen, and they push the blame on the events happened and not they themselves.

we are always living in an illusive reality, assuming identities as part of our everyday life. When we go to work, we take upon an identity of an staff, compromising and meeting the demands of customers, schooling, as students who strives to complete the assignments given, with friends, where identity as a friend to share your thoughts, happiness with one another, so does taking all these identities change who and what we actually are? How well does one or the other influences and impacts on their distinct social behavior? Are we performing these actions to suit our identity at certain points of time? Are we in a society of deception? is this what we were forced to become, or what we hoped to become?
The world we see in televisions are never the same as what we experience in reality, media itself is a powerful tool to inculcate propaganda/intentional messages to the public, thus none would want to show the true side of them, perhaps such as a documentary film i saw recently, Zeitegiest Adddeum or something, which offers and explains a theory of deception and possible hidden facts of how the U.S government manipulates the world leaders into 'corruption' in search for financial profits, and how possible assasinations, 'intentional terrorism and war' came upon, such as the war of iraq, where there is a possibility of u.s overtaking the country just solely for a show of dominance power as well as the rich oil prices control. All these are uncertain, but however after watching the documentary movie, i felt it might be true, and once again, ignorance is bliss, for you has lesser things to worry about.

Destinied one?

2008-10-21T00:08:00.000-07:00

Was it considered love at first sight? or its just me thinking around.

I needed time to find out. For i have a different aspect to look in life now.

Everything remains unchanged. I changed.

What i have changed, would it be good for me, would it not.

Would i still dare to face my fear and nightmare again, the fear of losing someone.

Could I forget everything and start again,

Could I become alive once again.

Would you become the meaning of my life?

School.

2008-10-19T09:53:00.000-07:00

I have not been going to school for the past 5 weeks. Its time to get back on feet.

Stressed.

But. I will go to school From Now On.

Dying.

2008-10-10T02:09:00.000-07:00

I know i am dying soon, theres so many things i want to do before i die. But i guess time just dont permit me to do so. Im weakening day by day.Though i want to enjoy my last remaining times with my good friends, just cant bear to see them leave me. I wonder if my body could even last me.

Its better for me to be left alone.

Influencing my life.. anime

2008-09-20T10:07:00.000-07:00

Here i am once again, writing again.

Basically did nothing over the weeks, school didn't interest me even though its a new term. Somehow i felt things were amiss.

What am I feeling? The same feeling everytime, everyday.

I used to think that I am always strong, stronger than anyone,
clever, clever than everyone,

was i?

maybe not.

But it feels good to think that you're stronger and clever than everyone, isnt it?

perhaps.

still the strongest falls, falling every second to darkness as time past.

time does age people isnt it, how happy would i be if theres no such thing called time and aging.

Looking back again at my life, i began to question myself, was i worth this life? did i do my best in everything? did i really enjoy as much as anyone else possibly could?

Answers kept trying to come out, but deep inside me i tried not to let them out, maybe this is what people call, afraid of reality.

All people have their past, i have mine too. All people experience happiness, sadness, sorrow, me too. But it seems that i experience sadness and sorrow more than happiness. However i guess its more of an regret that makes it this way i guess.

I regret, I regret i didn't study hard enough to get good scores in the past. I regret that i didn't laugh my heart out when i was with friends. I regret i did not perform well enough in pri sch basketball, I regret that i did not went for basketball in sec school because of my emotions, i regret that i wasted my sec school life doing nothing but fooling around. I regret i didn't visit my pri school teachers and sec school teachers on teachers day, I regret that I did not cherish my relationship with michelle, whom i admired since primary school. I should be blamed for my own mistake, for what i have done. I dont deserve any forgiveness, nor shall i forgive myself.

I regret i did not take initiative to continue being friends with jacky, kenny, haisheng and raphael. I regret i spent too much on games and dont recognize any time management.

I regret that i regret all of these. But whats the point of regretting all of these when all these cannot change back to what i imagined it was, yup, it is impossible. All i could do could only be dreaming the way i want it to be every night. so at the least i could savour the minimum happiness i could have.

How i wish time can turn around, i dont mind dying few hundreds, or even thousands of times just to make things right. How stupid could i ever be.

Whats the point of going to university, getting certs when they don't mean a thing to happiness.

In the past, I used to think that friends are nothing, not as important. They dont bring fun, its sufficient if i could make myself happy, because my past friendships has never been as good always. I guess i was wrong. but what could i say.

Thus, i began to look for another alternative, to replace what I have lost. Animes.

Animes really made me happier. There are comedy animes, like Gintama, there are action animes, D-gray man, naruto, soul eater, there are also romance animes, like itazura na kiss, there are sad but romantic animes, like chrono crusade.

Animes replace things you never get to experience, or replace feelings you never or couldnt get. They bring satisfaction and happiness to those who watched it, they touch your life. I get to laugh, cry, get excited whenever i want, watching those anime. Its better than nothing right?

No matter how you look or regret, theres no change to things that already fact. So for those readers who accidentally came to this small corner of mine, remember! you are given the power to change fate, don't wait for fate to change you! Time is limited, cherish it.

oh ya, new song.. Ending Theme of Itazura Na Kiss, original anime of taiwan drama 恶作剧之吻. Best of Anime romance.

I did not give the world up, the world gave me up.

2008-09-06T10:22:00.000-07:00

Time passes fast.. again

or was i slow?

many things happened.

many of which i hoped for is not.

would i still stay strong as a pillar do?

or would i fall down as normal people do.

will anyone help me up if i ever do.

is always relying on myself pushing me backwards , denying the existence of others,

or was it others who pushed me backwards denying me, making me rely only on myself.

Was I happy?

Was I wrong?

Could I get it correct, like answering a 50-50 question?

Or simply erase the question and never answer it because I am afraid to?

Answers don't come out as easily as you always hope that they do.

Or maybe its just because you don't want them to.

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Had a great day today.. went out with ys to tiong bahru for his workplace as he had some issues working over there and had to discuss with the manager.

Had a great laugh on the trip there. Thought i should write share it here lol.

Me: Yo Ys. (At MRT)
Ys: Yoz.. (Walking towards me with a bag on his hand)

Me: How? Plan what to say with your manager anot?(In MRT)
Ys: Donno leh.. Still thinking ar.. dunno wanna quit or not

Me: Oh.. i see i see.. what you bring with you ?
Ys: Oh.. this ar? my uniform lo.

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Me: Huh? then still need think de meh? (Starts laughing non-stop in mrt train)
Ys: ...(laughs with me)

Still find this v funny, lol.

But good thing that he never quit i guess, in the end lol.

Had a fun day today walking in bugis, eating, playing bball in arcade.. but sadly was not on form as im v full and surrounding dark , cant see properly. Still we broke 800+ points! Grats lol.

Shall go buy my personalise tennis racket tomorrow! before heading down to gather with friends for weekly basketball.

I will definitely excel in tennis. (Of course, thats another hope, but as the saying goes, a hope is like a glimpse of light for a person in darkness. Drawing the person cherishing it move towards it, motivating him to believe one day that glimpse of light would bring him out of the darkness, allowing the light to finally shine as brightly as a sun would do.)

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Back. Once again..

2008-05-12T22:32:00.000-07:00

Been months and almost a year since i ever came to this site.

Time flies, now in year two now.

Wonder how she's doing. Fine? not sure.

Cabal as always.

Tough decision to change guild or not to change.

Who would ever know.

The Decision.

2007-10-18T20:21:00.000-07:00

Questions never stopped running in my mind.

Sometimes I wonder too much knowledge would it cause people to be crazy or what.

How I wish time can be extended to 72hours, sleeping time for 12 hours and the rest 60 hours are for spending.

How I wish there is no end of the world.

I wonder why philosophers always wants to come out with so many philosophies to educate people. What are they really trying to show and achieve.

I wonder why my personality remains unchanged.

Thus, other things takes time to change, however personality can be always changed within a second.

Decision Made.

3 Main Things that I would be changing

1 - Way of Talking
2- Way of Expressing
3- Way of Understanding

Reason for change : To be both mature in the inside as well as the outside. Hopefully this helps.!

RJ Problem 5 for Culture and Aesthetics.

2007-10-18T08:31:00.000-07:00

Decided to post my daily RJs as part of my blog to reflect and also partly to understand my way of writing.. hahaz.

RJ Question : How do you feel about what you have learnt, and why?

Response:
Today's learning point was mainly more or less covered about discrimination.
Whenever I learnt something new, either a lesson or a experience, I would usually tend to appreciate what I have learnt. Given that things and problems do not usually come by. I felt a sense of achievement upon accomplishing something, as well as a sense of responsibility upon recieving something. By taking into consideration of the effort and thinking I have put into, I feel that it was worthful and valuable to me.
Learning in RP has defintely change my perception of learning things. Instead of following concepts and theories by the ancestors, I am able to derive my own conceptualisation of my way of thinking and understanding. Such examples can be shown in all 5 modules.
In conclusion, self-directed learning has its own pros and cons, like all things do. However if each and everyone of us could appreciate and understand the purpose of the way of learning and the things we learn, changing of perception is never a difficult task to be carried out.

Song title : 聽海

2007-10-14T01:02:00.000-07:00

聽海 (張惠妹/阿妹)
寫信告訴我今天　海是什麼顏色夜夜陪著你的海　心情又如何灰色是不想說　藍色是憂鬱而漂泊的你　狂浪的心　停在哪裡寫信告訴我今夜　你想要夢什麼夢裡外的我是否　都讓你無從選擇我揪著一顆心　整夜都閉不了眼睛為何你明明動了情　卻又不靠近聽　海哭的聲音　嘆息著誰又被傷了心卻還不清醒　一定不是我　至少我很冷靜可是淚水　就連淚水也都不相信聽　海哭的聲音　這片海未免也太多情悲泣到天明　寫封信給我　就當最後約定說你在離開我的時候　是怎樣的心情

work work work..

2007-10-07T02:11:00.000-07:00

wow.. a month no posting.. due to work.. study.. sleep.. archery..

so many things to do.. so many activities to cover..wonder when will i be able to take time out to go out with ppl i wanted to go with.. ><''

till then! more information would be updated in a few days time!

5/9/07 In Bus..

2007-09-05T10:30:00.000-07:00

Woo.. No time much for blog so have to write here in the bus transport heading towards home Lol. Today was fun with all the GRs and other people in NS. Learnt quite a lot of things today, like Japanese words or what lol. Would have quite some time to really learn and use the words to the tourists and such. Learnt many things abt the people here also. Don’t really know if I could cope with the timing at school and work here when school reopens. Tomorrow have to go down to training at 10. Argh! There’s only a board for archers to shoot already. Cause me and Minnie spoilt the other one. Carelessness perhaps. Damn sad sia.. planning to shoot in the rain yet didn’t. How how how. Yes 933songs are really good! Especially on the internet where you all could do internet streaming. As clear as on ur phones. Just realized it.

Don’t really have much to write at the moment.. except that the life for now on holidays is work, bathe, eat, dota, msn, sleep. Wonder if I could add more things inside =D ok off to do other things now. =) Missing the fun I had at the chalet with W34Q and the fun I had last time..

Name
: LIM JING JIE

NRIC
: S9021540Z

Matriculation Year
: 2007

Mentor
: Ned Low

Academic Results

Academic Year
Semester
Module Code
Module Name
Grade
Grade Point
Status*
2007/2008
1
A101
Basic Sciences I
C+
2.5
Y
2007/2008
1
G101
Cognitive Processes and Problem Solving I
B+
3.5
Y
2007/2008
1
A111
Computing and Mathematical Methods I
B
3.0
Y
2007/2008
1
G105
Enterprise Skills I
B+
3.5
Y
2007/2008
1
G103
Introduction to Communication Practice
B+
3.5
Y
* Modules marked with the status of 'Y' are included within the GPA calculation. Failed (E, F) or N Grade modules are not included.

Other Academic Information
Diploma Title
: Diploma in Materials Science
Creative Engagement (CE)
: Not Completed
Professional Profiling (PP)
: Not Completed
Grade Point Average (GPA)
: 3.20

OMG!! MY BASIC SCIENCES got 2.5 ONLY! Shit.. if i attended the last UT and not missing 2 UTs for that.. T.T! ARGH! nw GPA drop till 3.2 already.. damn sad. T.T oh well.. past is past.. learn and remember! LOL!

Day 2 @ Night Safari!

2007-09-01T10:59:00.000-07:00

Hai~! Wakaei Mushdha! LOL!

Its my second day working at Night Safari! or what you rather call the night zoooo.. yup =D
No mood for archery today, sucks totally for me. Well the only thing that was appealing to me was the solo shooting at the shooting ground for 30 mins + +! shot over 80arrows during this time! tuning my sight for the stupid bow. Damn pissed off ar! Go there late do 5 push up, i late wan use my bow I used always last time ppl say cannot got ppl use already, then ltr someone come in straight use the bow I used long ago. was like WTF? Got such bloody thing? Fucked up man. Argh. Don't wanna talk about those bloody not to mention things. Spoil my day only.. zz

10 - 4 PM Archery Training
4-6.30 Shower~ Transport to Night Safari
6.30 - 12.20 Part time GR
12.30 - 1.45 Transport back home
1.45 - ??? Home blogging, reading news, msn dota.. blah blah blah..

Yup.. Guess this would be the schedule I have for following holidays.. Bloody have to buy my own bow already.. cant stand it. ZZZ.

Working environment @ Night Safari was definitely a fresh experience.. As our duty as GR is to provide assistance and greetings to the guests who arrived at Night Safari such as information and related help, ensuring them a great service while visiting this place of interest. Woo, service was of top and high quality here, no singlish no broken english like, :What may I Help You? ahahahah.Wondered who invented that. =D

Met 2 New friends at GR today! Yesterday was Alicia, studying at SP i think, today! William from Ex ground crew currenting at NTU and Farhan! Currently in NUS. Shit, I think im the youngest at the department, JJ! LOLX! Abit of claps ah! haahahaha.

Looking at the schedule, think my time on Msn would be cut short! So if im online and ure bored, find me! cutting down DotA! =P Chatting is much much more important eh. hahaz.

Jingjie_Squirrell@hotmail.com - Abit weird is it! Oh my god.. thats my secondary 1's hotmail till now.. Feeling like changing it to a much more mature one.. but walao! 200+ contacts.. lazy change arr! LOLX =]

There are so so so so so so many pretty girl tourists walking past NS! So captivated by their beauty.. yet none seem to capture my attention..sadly. But perhaps working there in long time would make me feel that overseas girls are better! LOL! ahahahaha, maybe maybe.. but very hard to say. =P

Hoping to find the one~! Long term is a must~! Short terms not interested! hahahahahaha..

DIP - Dota in Progress
SIP - Slacking in Process
WIP - Working in Progress
CIP - Crapping in Progress
EIP - Eating in Progress

Joke of the Day - What do you call a deer with no eye?
Answer please highlight the bottom sentence =D

Ans: No idea =) - Laugh Pls! LOLX! hahax.

1st Day of Work..

2007-08-31T01:09:00.000-07:00

Today would be my official first day of work in Night Safari!
OJT a.k.a On the Job. Would be undergoing 2 days of it without any pay.. well for the rest it would be 6.50 per hr..

Working as GR - Guest Relation, perhaps then I would be an "service" to the tourists ^^
Seems exciting, but felt moody yesterday and today aft the chalet, something is missing in me.. perhaps its the fun im craving for.. maybe not.. who knows..

Any songs anyone could intro pls do so in the tag board! Recommendations are rewarded! with a thank you! LOL!! =P

perhaps perhaps perhaps..

28, 29, 30/8/07.

2007-08-30T10:29:00.000-07:00

The very best of W34Q Semester 1.

Chalet during these 3 days.. fun, laughter always happens in the rooms and outside of it. BBQ chickens are simply delicious, with otahs, satays~ irresistable! =)

Cycling around pasir ris park was definitely thrilling.
Playing in the playground park with yvette and yue xin was 100% sensationally fun!
Imagine running on a plate that moves faster and faster 45degrees towards the ground! Makes me wanna faint hahaz.
Would'nt forget that moment man! Simply too fun.

Exploring of entrance of red house was sure exciting, night cycling was fun, more fun when we cycled through the night from downtown east to old changi hospital =)

Eerie as it might be, crazy as we could be, we do sense something there=) for there are things that we couldnt explain either =]

3 days with all of you can be described in many words, but all i could say that its positive till the end =) Best class of the semester. - W34Q

Interesting!

2007-08-26T11:14:00.000-07:00

Your Personality is Somewhat Common (ISFJ)

Your personality type is stubborn, conservative, trustworthy, and caring.

About 13% of all people have your personality, including 18% of all women and 7% of all men
You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Judging.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Your French Name is:

Auguste Couture

What's Your French Name?

You are an Atheist

When it comes to religion, you're a non-believer (simple as that).
You prefer to think about what's known and proven.
You don't need religion to solve life's problems.
Instead, you tend to work things out with logic and philosophy.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

You Are Not Prejudiced

Not only are you color blind, but you're also ethnicity blind, gender blind, and sexual orientation blind.
You don't judge someone until you truly know them. And even then, you're probably reluctant to judge.
You try to treat everyone equally. Everyone has a fair chance with you.
Good job - there's not a prejudiced bone in your body.

Are You Prejudiced?

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.
You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward.
Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.
All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What Time Of Day Are You?

Fun website to test ur personality.. feel free to check it out =]

Ned's Comments

2007-08-26T08:13:00.000-07:00

Its a representation of the words of wisdom by the Class of W34Q and also Ned's comment =) Just posting here for future references.

Hi there W34Q!Some words of wisdom from our fellow classmates:Some words of wisdom for the class is that firstly, I feel that our class can bond better if everyone in the class will to care for each other and not only for themselves. This is because the world is not only about themselves but also about everyone. Sometimes when they only think about themselves, they will tend to hurt the others’ feeling unintentionally since they may or may not have experienced this before. Therefore, they will either think that it is fine to do that on others or they just want to make themselves feel better if they have experienced this before. Even if they didn’t mean what they say, the “victim” may interpret the words differently since everyone have different understanding of what had been said to them. Secondly, I hope that they will not bully the weaker classmates or facilitators. What I mean here is those classmates who are quiet and for facilitators are those who are willing to help us patiently and at all times. An example for the classmates is that, some of the people in the class like to make fun of hui qi and jian hao even if they did nothing wrong.As for the facilitator, there was once when most of the classmates went out to eat together during the first break and came back half an hour late for lessons. Though the facilitator for that module said nothing, I feel that the classmates who came back late should have apologies for what they did and not repeating the same offence. Lastly, I hope that the class would not skip class every time just because they don’t like the module, the facilitators or even their classmates. This is because everyone is here to gain more knowledge and not learning how to waste our parents’ money since they are the one who pay for our school fees. Besides that, if one skips too often for every module, it will not only give the classmates and facilitators a bad impression of oneself but also one may need to be retain for another year as they failed in certain modules.* * *Some words of wisdom for the class: Perserverance is the beginning of success, success is the beginning of life pursuitment. Failure is part of success, knowledge overcomes failure. And also, In studies, 10% luck, 20% knowledge, 20% creativity, 50% effort and 100% determination. I also hope that the present members of the class W34Q could do their entire best by second semester when school reopens. Achieving success is not the most important, but the process of achieving it is more valuable than anything else.* * *Everyone is special, so be proud of yourself’. Everyone have their individual uniqueness, which makes W34Q so special. Everyone is remembered, not as individual, but as W34Q. Be confident about yourself because each and every one of you is loved/being appreciated, just that was not being told.We have a long journey ahead of us; there are many obstacles and surprises waiting for us. We may not know what maybe happening in the future, but we can be prepared for it. So face your problems bravely, confidently, no matter what state you are in. Be good to feel good. Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising up every time we fail –Ralph Waldo Emerson We often make mistakes and give up half way through. But life is not easy, at times we fail to accomplish or unable to succeed, but it doesn’t mean we will we never be able to do so, so don’t give up from failure, instead, do it again, you will do better. As a saying goes ‘experience is the best teacher’, it show that if you will be able to do better if you learn from the mistakes. People who learn from their mistakes will be able to succeed. Do or do not, there is no try. (Master Yoda)* * *W34Q class of 2007 is where I found lots of joy & laughter all the time; even when one is on his/her down side of life. W34Q is the place where I met good friends. I am glad I was posted to Republic Polytechnic and into this class. Firstly, I have to thank my classmates for the kind support, happiness & especially laughters that they have brought into the class. It have been a wonderful time being with them.* * *The first one will be about dreams by George Washington Carver. So here it is: “Most people search high and wide for the keys to success. If they only knew, the key to their dreams lies within.” I believe everyone has their own ‘dreams’ in their live, and some of us have big dreams. I believe successful people made it because they dare to dream big. I think every successful people dream a lot, have a sense of purpose and will take action to create and live the life they want. Every dream come from our hearts and reflects our deepest longing and they are very personal. The second one will be about ‘failures’ by Sir Winston Churchill. So here it is: “Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusiasm.”Our past failures will not mean we should fail forever. I believe they exist only in our minds and this failure is a gift, although it is sometimes very difficult to accept it. I think there is only one thing more painful than failures and that is the inability to learn from our experiences. So I think real failures are those people who ignore growth and are afraid of moving forward. The third and the final one will be about ‘smile’ by Mother Theresa. So here it is: “Let us make one point, that we meet each other with a smile, when it is difficult to smile.”I think everyone should smile even though it is difficult for us to smile at times because smile is so natural which makes us look fresh and attractive. Smiling also makes us look beautiful and could brighten up other people’s day.. . .Final and extra word of wisdom: “Love the heart that hates you, but don’t hate the heart that loves you, because for the world you might be someone but for someone you might be the world.” How is it? =]* * *for me i will use the malay words of wisdom "hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih". it means that if u want something u go all out,but if u dont want something u make up a lot of excuses or slow down the process.like our class, we play alot.so yah if we want an A grade, we need to work hard, do our work well, and also participate in class.and also, when we dont want to come to class, we will make up excuses sometimes or even about the 6th presentation.hahahaha.another thing is,"if u fail to plan, you are planning to fail." yah. i want my mates in clas to be prepared for the future and also have a wonderful future ahead of them. all hail W34Q!!!!!!!- - - - -As I read your comments, I was giggling, laughing, frowning, groaning and definitely contemplating.What is W34Q to Ned? Ned sees a lively bunch of bright-eyed, cheery and promising young adults taking the first tentative steps into adulthood, gradually aware of the independence and the responsibility that comes hand in hand.I found this phrase especially meaningful, and I hope all of us can cherish what we have, and strive for better things to come:"Learn as if to live forever; live as if to die tomorrow." ~ Mahatma GandhiTake care, W34Q, and may we all grow gracefully and appreciate every moment of our youth - we are all young but once.

Songs Songs Songs~!

2007-08-25T03:41:00.000-07:00

New songs uploaded! Recommended songs~! =D
Woot!

Chapter 3 - Happiness, Joy, Sorrow.

2007-08-24T02:27:00.000-07:00

This post marks the end of semester, the end of the 16week's class. W34Q.

I must say this 16 weeks in RP with this class had made some views of values changed, in a positive manner. Having this class to chat and crap and play and work together really made me one of the most happiest days of my life. Those counter-strike, worms, PPT presentations, PDT discussions, RJ evaluations. The feeling towards the class has generally correspond towards the daily things we do, a feeling of not able to part away.

Honestly speaking, changing of class per semester might be a good or a bad idea, but after experiencing the lively lives in w34q, I wouldn't mind staying in that class for another year or 2, well.. although there's a final chalet to be holding =)

In that class we had our happiness there, we jump for joy with our facilitators, we break down in sorrow when there's a conflict, rest of the time we were having fun. the class with all the people in it itself had already been captured in my memory.

The last week of Enterprise didn't allow me to have time to write to all people, so I'll just post here =]

Boys :

JianHao: Hey Bro, if ure reading this, i'll like to thank you for sharing your time with me towards the starting of the semester, although you don't talk much, i believe that ure still a good to be with friend! Ur presence would make me happy and cry for joy ! Take care!

Stephen : Thanks for everything, you are no doubt a good and dedicated friend that brings optimism towards everywhere you go, don't give up in everything you do! I'll always support you =)

Aiman: Aiman! Gotta work harder for the next semester k! Ur CS skills is amazing! Ure a good and fun-to-be-with friend ^^ Take care..

Razali: A secondary school friend! NCC! Would'nt forget that, ure also one of the best friends to associate with, especially worms and cs if u recall =) Whilst we're playing, don't forget to neglect ur studies! Take care always!

Billy: You're definitely our class joker together with Aiman, Thiban Wan and Juffri, who never fails to make us laugh with ur jokes and ur laughter ^^ Take care!

Johnathan: Another good friend to be and chat with, specialist in VB codes, dunno, ask him ! =D Hope you could do as well as u did here in w34q, or perhaps excel better! Also one of my great CS-combat killer =)

Syafiq : Yoz, I realize out of the entire 16weeks, x 5 modules, I didn't have much of a chance to team up with you especially, only recalled 2 presentations that I teamed up with you, so didn't really explore your strengths and weaknesses.. but overall youre a good friend! haha!

Wan: Funny! Never fails to make me laugh out so loud I nearly went deaf hahhaha, a great friend, nevertheless funny! Stay cool forever!

CheeChong : A knowledgeble person, active and progressive person. His laughters makes us laugh all the time even though the jokes isn't funny. hahaha. Overall his good to communicate with! Great friend encountered =)

Juffri: Great friend to chat and play with. One of the best jokers in the class, never fails to make us laugh with his face hahahaha.

Thiban: Another “Borat” Lol! Good at talking and crapping. Great friend!

Firdauz: Okay finally got ur name spelled right =) A quite quiet person, however knowledge is there =) I enjoyed working with you everytime we cooperate together ^^ Great friend!

Okay.. That’s all for now for Guys in W34Q ^^ Wish you all the best in the next semester! Will update girls ltr on, quite tired =]

Chapter X - Regrets

2007-08-22T03:04:00.000-07:00

Looking back, i think its past 10months or so. Although those days seemed to be living by me everyday.

Had a long sleep today, just wake up from my 3hours of sleep. In these 3 hours it all seemed like a movie, and I was the person viewing it. Don't know where to begin with.. but what I first saw is the fish&co, where its the first time im dining there with her and the rest. The rest takes place in dunno where, i've never seen that places, nor do I recall it, but it was sweet.

Those 3hours really laid down everything I had. Gaining all those that I lost. I really hoped those 3hours could stop its time and let me cherish it forever. How I wished.

In the end, I woke up in despair, separating virtual from reality. So much feel like crying, so much felt like dying. All left was me stunning there for a couple of minutes.

The feeling of happiness being taken away from me really was unbearable, agony. But what could I do, could someone show me a road of direction.

My mind is in a blank, when I close my eyes words are floating everywhere, like rocks on outer space. Where should I begin..? How should I begin..

Being through a painful memory of childhood, I still could hold. However this made me suffer a total loss. With nothing to hold on to. Only with myself to be blamed.

I always tell others to work hard, strive forward and don't look back, yet I myself couldn't do it.., a failure I am.

Even the best falls down sometimes.

All humans makes mistakes. I really hoped to get a second chance. Yet something is holding me back, Confidence. I dont have the confidence throughout the 10months to talk to you even. All I could was to silently look at how you're doing through these months. Afraid to hurt you again.

Someone enlighten me. Someone give me a second chance. Someone give me hope. I really hope.

I may seem strong on the outside, maybe all percieve that, but this is not me in real. I'm just another small figure in this world.

Maybe what I could is to watch by the side those happiness people had, perhaps this would make me feel better..

Wonderful day

2007-08-20T08:37:00.000-07:00

What a day.

Woke up from sleep at the usual time, showered and prepared to go school. Yet going to school seemed not to. So went to sch's library to have dota the entire day lolz. zz.

Lucky my grade could afford to skip 1 day of lesson =x, still I felt the need to help my team members who came without me, so skipped my lunch and went find them.

Sadly.. seem that none really worked hard for the ppt, as much as I wanted to help, without the pre-understanding of the problem I couldnt do anything abt it since its science.. sianz -.-

Woo, anyway today's "school" is great and I really enjoyed it =)

MSN was fked up as usual, but still I liked the chatting! =D

Today was a happy day, and I hoped everyone's day would be happier everyday ^^ wouldn't you agree? =)

Chapter 2 - Philosophies of Life

2007-08-19T09:56:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wondered, is there a God in the first place.
And if God exists, then why are people created in the first place.
If God exists, and people are created by him, then why did God let so many disasters to befall on this world in the first place.
If God exists to create people and befall disasters to enlighten the people to worship him, then why didn't he stop creating people in the second place.

So it all ends up with, why are life created?

There are many philosophies of life created by all sorts of people, most of it pointing out specific aspects of life, giving their experience and understanding, but none of them could answer a question. What is life.

Christians believe that life is a present given by God.
Buddhists believe that life is a reincarnation of people who died last time.

Lets talk about these 2 today.

Christians, holding on to a crucifix and a bible, washed in a pool of water called baptising, called themselves servants of God.

They believe in the existence of god's presence to save them from disasters bringing them to another dimension, called the god's arms.

For why would they do that? Answer : The Bible.
So what exactly is a Bible? Oh, its nothing much, its just a book with many many unclear words that said about a god called jesus christ who saved the world from sins. Till now people still believe in that story book. Wouldn't it be funny? Believing of a god's existence just basing on a book and many pastors to promote the book.

If there really was an god, then why didn't he appear 2000years later after he died. or rather reincarnate again to save the world from sins again, and trusting a old book which did not speak any of the present day. My question towards the book would be : By another 1000years later, when all humans began to befall armagadon, would people still believe in the book? Still trusting that there are such god?

Just giving my point of view. Science experiments have already proved that on earth, there are no such thing as god, we've been to outer space, viewing of the universe , but we do not see god looking down to earth at us. Vacuum surround earth, so if his outside of universe, how could he breathe?

Secondly, who created the Bible? God did? spending his own sweet time writing down his understandings? Human created the Bible, promoting it, and lead people into it. Jesus Christ is just another human which existed on Earth 2007years ago. The present humans are the ones that are more important than the book. If that wouldn't let you believe in, why not asking yourself who created english language and other languages? God? nah, its man, so if man created words who do you think created the bible? =)

Trust me, you wouldn't want to live your rest of your life holding on a bible and waiting for a god to come to you and say : youre saved.

All things are created by man, movies, songs, buildings, wars, man-made disasters, books, modern technology. The rest are all natural. Never was God.

Okay! Now lets talk about buddhists. They believe in reincarnation and ghosts spirits.
However do that really happened? Some say yes, some do not know, but what i believe its completely lame. Redirecting back to today's discussion topic : Life.

All people have an average lifespan of lets say : 80years.
With an up going of around 6,000,000,000 people in the world today, with differing races, even if there is an reincarnation, out of the hundreds and thousands of countries and people who live there, newborn babies being born every single second, do you possibly think that you would really be borned in the same country again? That would be a probability of 1/60000000000!
Logically, that could only be possible only if you believe in what those people say, so why not question yourself about the things they said, perhaps we all could enlighten ourselves before trusting anyone.

Ghosts and Vampires, etc etc. Have we ever seen them? All are words from people's mouth. Ghosts ghosts ghosts.. you might think its scary, but think again, if there really was such thing as ghosts, then who was the ones who talked about it? Who made out the facial expressions of how ghosts looked like and behave? It still all comes down to humans. Great, all things are done by humans, no wonder they seek help from fictional beings.

All humans are unpredicable. They do things unexpectedly, perhaps due to the surrounding environment and social factors that overpower them, such as murders and kidnaps. They definitely do not know how to appreciate their life. Its because of these people who made the world so disgust now. That sure sucked.

Talked so much about religions, almost forgotten about today's chapter, Philosophies of Life!

Honestly speaking, even I myself do not know what I am going to do with my life, sometimes feeling down, while the rest I'm happy with my life. I'm just happy that there is this brain of mine which kept me accompany thinking of things and things. Which thus all lead to our own little philosophy of life.

When I said philosophy, doesnt mean that everyone must be an philosopher to do so, in fact, philosphy is just a extract of what people think, so if youre able to think and understand what ure thinking, that could become your philosophy!

Everyone lives on earth for a reason, to seek attention, company, joy and understanding! So whilst all of you who are reading this, enjoy when you still live!

Life is not life when there is no joy =) - Quoted by : JingJie ^^

Chapter 1 - Time

2007-08-18T12:05:00.000-07:00

How fast times flies, soon it will be the end of Semester One for RP.
Between this 16 weeks in RP, I have to admit it was a fun and joyous days about working and playing with one another in class. Life has never been more fun than that, with suprises everyday.

Birthdays celebrated in class gave us all memorable memories that would be engraved in our minds, whenever we look back at the times we spent together. I would most probably miss that W34Q room cause it is where I shout, laugh and sad.

Even though there might be conflicts within the class, still overall we get along well, therefore I would like to thank all of W34Q's people in it for all your contributions made in creating wonderful memories for me, not forgetting the great powerpoints we did together. =)

Talking about time, do you treasure time given to you? how did you make use of the given time? doing something funny? stunning? or even crazy?

At least for me I try to make best use of my time to do something that would make me happy, something that could benefit me and others perhaps.

Time is so amazing, sometimes I feel that time is slowing down, and on certain situations I feel that it is flying so fast. How I wish I could even turn back time rewinding back to the past, repenting on what I did wrong and improve the things I did, eventhough I know it is impossible.

3.21am, here I am restlessly writing on posts I don't even have any ideas on. But thats just me, writing crap and thinking it might be true. hahaha.

Gotta work harder, I guess. Time is short for all of us, but what is valuable is what we did to make it worthful, so make use of time, don't regret when theres none left =)

Morale of the "Story" - Treasure your time ^^

...

2007-08-17T09:20:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wonder if i ever did the correct things,
School was okay today, not until I did something bad.
Was too angry till I couldnt hold it.
and thus vented anger on a person who was innocent,
causing her to cry.

I din expect that to happen,
all just caught me by suprise.
What should I do, I couldn't think
Feeling quite down, cause I made a girl cried.
Have to really control my anger from now on, couldn't afford to hurt anyone else again.

Sorry Wanie for what I've done today. Sincerely apologise.

Recaps of songs..

2007-08-16T10:09:00.000-07:00

Looking back when I was young, songs had accompanied throughout the daily life I have experienced, melodies that kept company with me whenever I was alone, thus I shall do this recap of the songs I always liked till now, which can be located in my music column. Feel free for reference~ as I mostly like sad songs, because I feel that sad songs are able to bring out the sorrow in it.

It is always good to sometimes do a reflection on the way we are compared to the past.

Did I change over the time?
Did I change for the better? or for the worse?
Did I ever doing some things that we regretted?
Could I even have a second chance?

All these came up to my mind whenver I listen to sad songs. Sometimes I ask myself why did I do things that I did not consider any consequences beforehand.

Lessons I have learnt had been encrypted, gradually understanding of situations had become more easier for me whenever I look and analyse things.

Perhaps this is the reason why I tried to lead people in class, to not make any mistake in any situations that could or could not be unfavourable to either myself or the rest, and perhaps this is also the reason why people dislike me, and perhaps it is also the only way for me to communicate with people.

So many questions clouding my mind.. all awaiting to be solved, but do I have the capability to do that..

For what I know, the destination I am heading still remains unknown, sophisticated, wonder if I could just peek into my future for just a min, or even a sec, and all would be answered.

Recaping of my 17years of life on earth, there are many things that we have done, be it happy or sad, joyous or sorrow, there are 2 things i could remember that I regretted doing.

1. Did not focus myself on studies when young.
2.Cheated on a girl's that I loved feelings.

Sincerely hoped she could forgive me.. but I know its difficult, cause I had difficulty forgetting it too..
If by any chance would you come across reading this, I am very sorry about what I have done.. because I dint know what I was doing even. Very sry.

Guess this marks the end of the post, quite alot of songs thats on my music box, feel free to listen if interested. hahaz.

signing off.

~

2007-08-15T10:38:00.000-07:00

Another day just past..

School was okay today, lessons were simply boring and facilitator just cant seem to let down her answer sheet to facilitate us. However the topic and RJ for today was easy, phew.. luckily hahaz.

Had whole load of CS today, could say its the main interest for me to interact with the class. awp awp awp.. gotta train LOL.

School ended at 5.12 today. is like wtf zzz.

After that packed up my things, first thing is head for 7-11 for some nachos with double serving with cheese xD. the entire day never eat dao feeling like fainting arr.. =.=

Fly to archery training aft that. Today's training kinda sucks, especially when I cant use the bow I have been constantly training with, and someone's facial expression turned my mood down, sianz. But overall still okay la, cos got all the remainder juniors to chat with ma.. hahaha, esp Ivan and Kong ming ar, gd buddies to talk cork with LOL.

Got my preordered fingertap le, but damn stiff ar! definitely has the need to season it.

Tmr's the last official UT for the semester! woooot! cant wait to do the bloody UT and proceed to my sleep hahahahaha, but very hard to say ar.. mayb nv slp dao =)

arrrr.. so damn bored now.. dota or nt.. hmmm... consider first hahahaahahah

okay. end of post. hahahaa

gone.. Gone!!

2007-08-14T02:41:00.000-07:00

arrrrr... die liao die liao die liao die liao...!!

Today again din go school.. missed my UT4 science.. ZZzzz.. GPA gonna drop another grade liao... omfg.. what the hell am i doing ar! sian. But nevermind la, at least today got a day off ma LOL. better than nothing.

Yesterday was damn hillarious! went to archery training as usual, and as usual shoot form shoot distance, and as usual..that bai gu jing come disturb me again....

But nevermind! as usual i challenged her to a 1end shootout compy! (scores the most wins!)
but unusual! i won her!! woot! - if ure reading dis, remember ar! wed - 1 cup of root beer hor haha!

hmmz.. so today woke up at arnd 1.. bathe brush teeth.. on com and next thing is - Dota! so many fucking noobs on bnet ar.. crap.. leave game leave game leave game.. make ppl so damn du lan -.-.

lalala. msn games are fun eh hahaha. at the least can pwn hwee min in it =X haha! oop. gtg for nw. hahaha!

Happy National Day Singapore!

2007-08-09T05:23:00.000-07:00

Today's National day parade is just so fantastic! Happy 42th Birthday!

oh?

2007-08-06T19:40:00.000-07:00

Oh? its been 5days since i'm back to this blog lolz. cool. >>> jus added someone in link lolz, so jus might as well come here and write something. Today's module has quite a number of things to sort out, waha, quite bothering though LOL. But basically its all about classifying and processing of information through various methods diversifying into catergories which we can obtain information easily without any trouble. Cd racks - lame LOL.

Feeling bored these days, especially in class -.-. lucky theres still a thing called radio to listen to zz. Dota's beginning to be bored! Anyone able to offer new games ? =D

recently looked into msn, and saw a new group formed called - RKEJ.. nice group lol. easy to remember too.

damn restless nowadays. think have to go find a job to improve my lifestyle ahah. might be a gd option lol.

What more could I say?

2007-08-02T08:22:00.000-07:00

What more could I ever say? Perhaps none. Today had been an good example. It looks like the days in w34q had gonna be tough, or should i say, unpleasant. What could I possibly even say? It had came onto my attention that the people in there had drastically changed, getting more and more hostile as days past. Hah.

Who knows what might happen eh. Sometimes I really felt why should I even pin myself down in the first place, comeon, looking upon the previous post that I posted I really think that I am damn stupid. Rofl. Helping people? Being a so called "leader" to lead the team? sometimes I really do not understand how I work man.

yaya.. leadership qualities that I possess.. completely bullshit. <- seriously speaking. I dont even like being a leader. Any facilitators that may possibly happen to look at this, pls, stop giving me these comment eh. I dont really enjoy it.

Inside a team, no one wants to take charge and lead the team, holy shit. I lead the team nt happy, den just let me relax and do nothing? omfg. That is so freaking nonsensical. I believe I am really going to cherish the external holidays that could be of some use on the days itself. Preventing any wastage of the entire day doing specifically nothing. Shit. Damned dissapointed in the class.

Sigh. Cant really be bothered by it, thus I should layout my principles in school for the time being

Principles in Class
1. You work with me, I work with you.
2. You serious, I serious.
3. You refuse to work with me, bear the consequence.

Afterall there is nothing I could possibly lose, shall see how this thing goes.

Anyway, just to clarify this, after further considerations, I have decided not to include any tagboard onto my blog.

Factors considered

Personalised Blog, no reasons whatsoever to gain specific comments about the way I write
Prevention of any discriminations
Don't really require a tagboard to actually know who came to my blog
Theres a place to comment at the end of every post
Cant really think of any positive reasons why I should place a tagboard

So... Sorry Auntie! However I would try my best to update my blog.. provided time is on my side. diao, you also put me ahgong mah. hahaha. I cant think of any other names except that, so accept it LOL.

Today's archery was quite interesting. Not much comments except that we all had a good time talking and chatting and crappin, thats like 180degrees different from the class i'm in.

What more could I say~ sigh. Pathetic.

NTDD~ (Nothing To Do Day) -.-"

2007-07-29T06:19:00.000-07:00

hahaz.. tis = my second post on this official blog to vent all my things inside! Lol! Cool.. just finished changing the entire blogskin inside.. however to my dismay.. dunno its my com lousy or what.. try change for few hours oso cant ZZzzz.. freak man. However~, thers someone soooooo kindddd lolx! called Cassandra, a.k.a QinYI, a.k.a AUNTIE! helped me to do the entire blogskin!

Nice rite! I believe so! She just took care of the entire blogskin.. and tadaa! best blogskin of the year lolz! Thanks again AuntiE! ^^

hmmz.. today went to jurong entertainment to make a new spec =D kinda cool ^^

The process of testing out my eyesight lasts for around 30min.. OMG!! however still nt bad la.. why? - cos theres a quite pretty eye tester helping me to test my eye lol! wahahaha.. mayb she did it on purpose de wor ahahahaha! Ooops =X

Dota Dota Dota Dot la! gotta separate dota with a L!! so damn bored playing the same old game in the same old computer with the same old character.. hahaha

Tmr's back-to-RP-day.. T.T how i wished i could just stay home and watch tv, play game, sleep and do what I want! instead of going to school, asking my teammates to do this do that T.T, sometimes i really wish they could take the responsibility to head as a leader to command me to do things~~..

To W34Q if anyone did made the effort to look at this blog..

To all of you, I might appear fierce or fearful, making nasty remarks about the way you work or the act of unwillingness or even the sense of displease with what you may be doing, trust me, it wasn't intentional. Actually my expressions on my face does not incoporate what I think of anyone of you.

To me, what I want to achieve in this 16weeks in this class for the first semester, is to help you as well as myself progress from the way we are learning through out the 4years of secondary school, as well as improve the learning skills you guys have, making you guys the best of the best towards the upcoming of second semester. I tried to engage all of you into researches and deepening your understanding, however you all might have diversed into another understanding. That I may have apologise.

However I hope you all should know that I have no grudges against anyone of you, perhaps I have demanded too much, however there are times where we should work hard, and there are periods where we can slack. Unwillingness to contribute due to different facilitators is not acceptable to me after all. I believe that the knowledge that we gained from the presentations we created does not benefit the facilitators, but rather more on ourselves, so, i really hope that all of you could strive for urselves..

Afterall, the future lies in our own hands, =) Whether you want to work hard or not still isnt up for me to decide hahaz.. People who are interested in my explanation in any module subjects can always approach me, I like helping people who needs help, so feel free to ask! ^^

oops.. forgot today I named someone a penguin, and I got a name called Hamster LOL!! si mona lisa LOL!!
Okay~! time for me to rest le. tagboard will be up soon! ^^

Signing off~! -HamsteR- LOL!!

Computing today

2007-07-22T20:06:00.000-07:00

I am writing in view of today's lesson to vent out my dissapointment on the team that I have been teamed up with today. Till now I still do not understand what holds them from interacting with each other as well as communicating. Why can't they react like normal people and start learning instead of doing other things without any sense of responsibility towards the team itself? Why cant they show the minimum amount of respect towards the other team members who have the need to learn new things to be incoporated into their lifes? Why cant they do something about it but just sit there and do nothing?

Damn it.